Binging? Not Logging?

Today was a tough one.  I'd really like to say it was due to work or something stressful, but I can't.  It was a really slow day at work.  I only had a  few meetings so I was able to get almost caught up on emails (almost being the key word!). 

Maybe it was because I definitely have a cold.  I just felt like eating.  I ended up eating about 20 pieces of taffy and 2 of the single serving ice creams.  No bananas, no fruit.......  I just wanted to eat.  I wasn't even that hungry.  This is also the first day I just couldn't make my self log what I was eating.

I really thought it would help if I could try swimming tonight.  Unfortunately, I was in slow motion with the dogs and they seemed to be as well.  By the time we got back, I didn't have time to make it there in time.  I will be there on Wednesday from 7-8.  The evening swims are Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays.  I don't think that I'll be able to get up in time for the morning sessions from 5:30-7!  That is way to early for me!

I seem to do much better when I write down what I need to work on so for the rest of the week I will get back to eating a fruit or vegetable with every meal.  I will also log everything that I will eat and eat breakfast, lunch and dinner at the normal times.

On a totally different note, I watched a French film, The Hedgehog, based on the book called The Elegance of the Hedgehog.  I listen to a log of books via audible.com and this is one that I really enjoyed.  It's about a lady who is a building super and doesn't feel good about herself.  She starts meeting with an 11 year old in the building who wants to kill herself on her 12th birthday.  A new tenant in the building who takes an interest in her.  She begins to see herself in their eyes and begins to transform herself.  As she realizes that she is lovable, she gets hit by a truck trying to save someone else.  Paloma, the little girl makes a statement, "It's not how you die, but it's about what you were doing when you die, and Renee, you were ready to love."  I don't know what that touches me, but it really does.  I think I'm ready to transform myself and love as well.

Till tomorrow.....

xxoo

Deb